Do you doubt more than you believe ?

One lesson that we must all take with us everywhere we go in our lives is that we have to live courageously. We must all be willing to accept the things that have happened in our lives that we never wanted to happen, learn the things in our lives we never cared to learn about, and let the people go in our lives that are bringing us down. When you are able to let go of the person that you were, then and only then are you truly able to start becoming the person that you know you can be. 

It takes the courage to stand up and fight for what is in your heart, instead of letting life dictate to you that you will be what it wants you to be. There will always be things in our lives that we will have trouble letting go, but we must always remember that letting go doesn't mean that our lives are over. Letting go means that we have a acquired new life, and that we are more ready than ever to conquer whatever may lay in out paths. 

In d another hand, that trying to deny the things that are just burning inside of us, and that are part of who we are as a person, and the feelings of love that we may share with another individual is trying to do the impossible, and the very regrettable. In this world one thing that is for certain is that we are limited to only a small amount of time, why would we waste all of our time trying to live or be something else besides who and what we feel that we are on the inside.

Never deny your heart, because your heart is what leads you to real, true happiness in life. The more that we deny who we are, the longer that we prolong achieving the success of being truly happy, don't make a mistake that you will regret for a life time, be you and do you doing so will truly make your whole life worth it. 

A whole life to do something.

I have been a long time coming, and ill be a long time gone. WE all have a whole life to do something, and that's not very long. Well, how was it going everyone. Hear my regards to soul and romance everyone, lots of loves. I know is been a long while after I graduated. I got a lot to describe here; as I am being occupy oneself stuck in a long lively life. If you understand what I mean. Anyway, graduate from college? what can I say? feeling happy or freedom? officially maybe in both time but in another way I feel good to only focus and being on one situation only. But how I realised that studying and working in the same time much more challenging than I though. Working all day long, still not a passion of mine, sorry to disappointed. Everyday the list I usually do in a day woke up, survive, and go back to sleep. Just like d Fb post on it. Hey, I'm still learning in life, what do you expected from? 

At some point, theres a advantage and disadvantage with both situation. Fighting fighting fighting! I'm on it. I still have a looong way to go. Talking about graduate; colleges mates, classmates, or whoever, Everyone is beautiful in their own way, in and out and you have no right to tell them otherwise. I am really grateful to meet them first of all, although I might be not a close to them or too fierce to them. With the memories of mine to them is also a blessing to be with. I just lost another friend, a classmate who's the same group in a period kitchen class and exam. He who has gone, so we but cherish his memory, abides with us, more potent, nay, more present than the living man. My deepest condolence. Rest in Peace my friend. Always be remembered. I post this a few weeks ago. It was a biggest shock to me, that I couldn't believe in my own eyes and ears to heard that. Life. we cannot expected. 

3.07am here again in the dark room blogging. Oh well, Speaking of which guess what? I passed all my education ! Last sem I'hv done a very good job I suppose. 3 full pages of essay in a row man ! I seriously need to pass in the very last sem to get a higher marks. But too bad theres no A. So close to get A but only to get B+ . shit/ its okay least I pass will be fine. 

Its my time to see the word. Going to Taiwan on this Saturday. Excited coming and here at last I can visit. Theres so much I wish to see, and so much I need to explore. Things that I am not expected, damn I just cant wait to see Taiwan. In a matter of fact, -'- I dont read Chinese and speak much well in Chinese. Its sucks when people dont understand you when you are dying trying to understand them. And people might laugh at you or saying much more deeper meaning. Well, lucky to have a friend of mine join in who knows chinese pretty well in much. 

*yawn *** getting sleepy. Look! I got a new hair colour. Well was going for light red brown but end up baby brown in a greenish colour. Looked okay for me. Lucky for me to choose a fantastic salon at Lintas. Juns salon was remarkable. Just what I wanted and looking for. Finally found a hairstylist with my own. I went there a few times with only a hair cut. Not so bad after all. The owner was a good man. So right then! All the very best people creature! Please take care of youre self, I dont want to lose another on my side. Blessed!*

A wish ?

I always think of, A wish they called a fairy tale. A wish came true they called a happy ending or happily every after. Yes everyone does have a wish, but isit came true ? They have a lot of different kinds of wishes, may can be a Job? life, family, money, or love and relationship. Now a days people majority are wishing for a relationship. Finding a new partner its just cant help at all. What I mean is to let the faith goes and flow itself to meet someone who really can stay beside you until the end of youre life. I know' people saying, to try and just aiming the faith but I dont think thats gonna works for me. 

Having or without a partner in youre life doesn't matter at all. As long you are happy and enjoying youre fucking life. Well I mean its matter but the point is to be patient. You have youre family and friends? Thats what makes you happy as well right and not to be lonely? As for me? I dont really care much and rather to being single for all these years. Its not that I am all the Ms. Right. But hm, think. Does it waste youre time? when things are over? And then you gonna post up the fb status saying new life.. Come on, .. Damn i hate that words. Seriously? New life new me? that is just sick! 

But yea people deserve to learn in life. I dont mind at all as long you remember dont make a fool of yourselves. If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding like this. For all those fairy tales are full of  shit, One more stupid love song ill be sick.  Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the question themselves. 

Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions. 

Little Italy commercial at Kota Kinabalu

So here, please enjoy the video I made. As I have promise you all that Ill show to you guys. A Little Italy Restaurant commercial. We have decide to interview Italy restaurant together and theres no another choice where to because each of our timing is not suitable and so we choose the close part near our college. I know, a commercial should be short and fast. But oh well, do what lecture ask for. Only doing for marks. Just comment whatever you guys need to say 

Found a Poem from Ati Sheet paper

''The term ''Chef'', Although frequently used to describe anyone who cooks, is considered a mark of respect by those within the profession. The titles in one that can only be earned through delight practice and dedication. Those chefs who have made or will make the most lasting impression on this industry know that their sucess depends on their ability to fulfill many different roles...'

Who would have guessed it ?

I am awake again in 1.10am right now in the middle of a midnight. Wish i could sleep early but here am i in Insomnia .. But hey? I woke up today in the afternoon 12.30pm what should be enough sleep for me tho.. Still i felt tired inside *not knowing why* ha ha haa. oh well. Anyways, hows life creature..

Okay, So.. Ms.Depress and Mr. Frustrated still here caring on with me but m good what? -,- Well obviously its not easy. Schedule are packed and I find some time to stay on like a wind cat with my pals *laughs..they are just awesome..My pleasure to have them in my life. Its awesome if youre enjoying the life time with peace. The question is; do i get bored when I am being alone all the time. Truth? When i am lost, being silent is not alone only to find a way figure out the way and somehow I just dont care I even love to be alone. With that situation I feel the freedom and nothing will gone wrong. No offence, I love friends and family been around with me as well only that everybody are being busy all day long.   

I went to Sailor's Restaurant last month. It was fantastic! The food is remarkable and the concept design inside are so comfortable atmosphere. The restaurant looked like a fantasy tea house feeling. Oh damn, I should snap some picture of it, I was too excited busying with the chalk on the wall and hungry until the food arrived. I asked for a lamb steak. Well as for price? I still can afford as well as who whatever food lover in KK. Dont worry the price is fine. Their location its at Lot 36 1st Floor Plaza Grand Millennium, Penampang Bypass, 88300 Kota Kinabalu, Malaysia. Feel free to check their Facebook as well. 

See that ? what do you think actually?? I made it myself. I'hv joined a project with a friend of mine. A handmade to sell out. I tried to find sometime for doing this project and end up I only got to do some part. Some of the idea i have end up i couldn't make it cause I cant cut the damn wine bottle. HAHA! 

I tried to make it like this but in another different part of my plan. A kind of little lamp to put inside youre room. Nice huh. I would rather to out inside my room someday if i got the time to build one. And i will. 

Aaand, I got another awesome tattoo in my body. Its a Lotus flower with a wavy water. With a deep feeling I am in love and happy to have this tattoo and special thanks to Adrian who spend the time until midnight 2am Ink this tattoo. He have a Amazing design of his own concept even a advice as well. Its good to have a advice rather than soon to have the feeling of regret. I let him know what I want and he design his own with this; looks a Japanese design just what I thinking of. 

Basically why I asked for a Lotus flower, First I was doing my assignment with a taboo food and search for one country of religions. And I have search for this Buddha history of their story. I read and watched all of their behind story over a thousand century ago. And now I understand how and where the Buddha came from. Secondly, I was thinking to have another tattoo in my body a long time ago but only I couldn't find a idea with it. And then I remembered the touching story I just learned with the assignment.

Lotus flower has often been described as the most exquisite wishes of the Mother Nature for the mankind. The lingering fragrance of the lotus flowers holds the perfect potential of bringing a tender smile on anybody's lips. The importance of the lotus flowers is so great for the mankind that many traditional and spiritual meanings have also been attributed to them. The Lotus flower meanings hold in themselves the secret of happiness and cheerfulness. 

The Lotus flower basically symbolized the clarity of heart as well as the mind. In other words the Lotus flower represents strength, good luck, long life as well as honor and respect. Some scholars have even talked of the lotus flower being a universal representation of the spiritual presence in human lives. And thats the story about. 

Okay thats enough for now, i got to get my ass up at 9 tomorrow' Well i meant later. Got a video presentation to preform and I have to wore a formal wear. Just what I dislike with heels and fit cloth. Oh well, wont kill me for once right ? Ill try. Share with you guys the Video I made next time. Have a nice night and day creature. 

Dream dreaming, eat less and eat. Love

Staring a day, do a simple, practical and pragmatic. Not indulge in fantasy, Not much ado about nothing. To be happy, be cheerful, to be tough, you want to warm people to really Prudential. To be honest, frankly, to be generous, forgiving, have a sense of balance, the smiling face. More reading, watching a good book. Eat less and eat. To have a dream, even if far away.

I got this translated from Chinese to English. Well sounds okay alright. Why i post this is because Yes its true. I do not mind if i die trying. People everyone of us does trying in their individual life. Its impossible you never try something in you re life. Even if I am very busy of my life for work, college or personal things and I have a tight schedule Still I looking forward to balance it in term of study, work and chill out with my pals. But yea its tiring somehow not enough sleep. Yes! The first paragraph words up there its me. 

What i need to share something to you guys is that, i dont understand why do people ask for a job that they are not interested ? I understand when theres a part time working only for their pocket money but just dont work when you cannot handle it. Its good when they work and have some experience. In real life doing something you dont like it is just wasted youre time, dont you think? Why dont you work on a particular place that you have talent rather than working in other place to mess things up.  Seriously ???